oN mY oWn...

2006-05-31T01:22:00.000-07:00

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a song for my God!

2006-05-22T03:56:00.000-07:00

I Can Only Imagine
Mercy Me

I can only imagine

What it will be like

When I walk

By your side

I can only imagine

What my eyes will see

When your face

Is before me

I can only imagine

CHORUS

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel

Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still

Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall

Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all

I can only imagine

When that day comes

And I find myself

Standing in the Son

I can only imagine

When all I will do

Is forever

Forever worship You

I can only imagine

a song that reminds me of him...

2006-05-17T20:37:00.000-07:00

AT THE BEGINNING

We were strangers

Starting out on a journey

Never dreaming what we'd have to go through

Now here we are

And I'm suddenly standing

At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you

Unexpected, what you did to my heart

When I lost hope

You were there to remind me

This is the start

Life is a road, and I want to keep going

Love is a river I want to keep flowing

Life is a road, now and forever

Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

At the end I want to be standing at the beginning

With you

We were strangers

On a crazy adventure

Never dreaming how are dreams could come true

Now here we stand

Unafraid of the future

At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere

Like me alone in the dark

Now I know my dream will live on

I've been waiting so long

Nothing's going to tear us apart

And life is a road, and I want to keep going

Love is a river I want to keep going on

Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and I want to keep going

Love is a river I want to keep flowing

In the end I want to be standing at the beginning

With you

*haaayyyy... ang ganda ng lyrics... when the right time comes, i will start a new beginning of my life with him... hehe... (i can't believe i'm posting this in my blog...) haha... haaaayyyyyy... nakakamiss... sooooobrrrrraaaaa... i don't know what's happening pero i have faith in the story God is writing for our lives... medyo nakakalungkot nga lang kasi may mga nagbago na... hehe... (bakit ang drama ko??? i'm not like this... haaaayyyy...) hehe... ayun... that's all...

i love this song...

2006-03-11T21:24:00.000-08:00

Who Am I
by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

pressure from everywhere...

2006-02-04T07:52:00.000-08:00

haaayyy.. i don't like this feeling.. feeling ko, everything's slowly eating me up.. ang daming pressure sa paligid ko and i'm not doing good.. on every aspect of my life, merong pressure.. first, sa family, haayy.. sa tingin ko malapit na kaming mabad-shot dahil sa madalas na pag- uwi namin ng late in the evening, dahil sa pag-asikaso ng ikot bayan (it's not that i'm blaming the activity..) kaya ngayon, i'm really trying to make things good here at home.. although wala naman silang sinasabi, i'm not insensitive not to feel na ganun na ung nafifeel nila samin.. another thing, about my brother.. he has this problem at socializing with others at school.. kung titingnan ko un, mababaw lang un because i understand.. every person just go through it.. nasa stage na talaga ng development ng isang human na mag- undergo ng mga emotional conflicts.. un nga lang, as i can see, medyo nahihirapan ung bro ko to cope up dun sa particular stage na un.. kaya in a way, we also have to guide him.. and you know what? medyo sinisisi ng nanay ko ung sarili nya of what's happening to my younger brother.. and pumasok din sa isip ko na as her sister and as a future teacher, hindi ko na naaalagaan ung kapatid ko.. mahirap din kasi sakin na makita ung ganun kasi diba, i'm taking up education and its alarming for me to see my own brother's grades na unti- unting bumababa.. am i not an effective teacher? haaayyy.. second, sa studies.. thesis! book reports! and many other requirements.. it's february and dumadami na ung mga requirements namin na kailangan ng ipasa right away.. and what i don't like is that, i'm starting to feel lazy to go to school.. haayy.. i don't why? siguro kasi malapit ng mag- end ung semester.. gaun kasi ako.. hehe.. pero i promised myself na hindi ko naman pababayaan ung pag- aaral ko.. haayy.. third, sa service.. haayyy.. sobrang daming activities ngaun.. and hindi lang basta madami, mabibigat pa.. ung tipong pang-professionals na ung dapat gumawa.. hayy.. i don't know if i'm feeling the right thing pero i want to give up.. there came a time na sabi ko sa sarili ko na mag- iinactive na lang ako.. pero hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ko magawa.. i love this service, the people that i'm with, and the feeling while i'm serving.. i'm getting tired.. ewan ko ba kung bakit? maybe because of the activities kaya nappressure ako ng ganto.. and i'm not taking anything positively.. hayy, namimiss ko na ung dating ako na laging optimistic pagdating sa service.. tama nga ung sabi ni ej about sa ikot bayan (yfc activity), it is a test of faith.. sobrang natetest ung faith ko ngaun.. and mas nakilala ko ng sarili ko, hindi pala ganun kalaki ung faith ko.. i thought nothing can hinder me from believing pero these challenges did.. haayy.. nakakainis din kasi ngaun ung chapter heads overnight, dapat talaga hindi ako sasama because inuna ko ng init ng ulo ko sa pagdedesisyon. but then, nung kinausap ako ni enrik at bornok about dun, convincing me to go there, i thought kailangan ko nga talaga ng matindihang nourishment ngaun because i don't like what i'm feeling now.. but unfortunately, i didn't.. nagkasakit ako kahapon(friday) and tomorrow (sunday), aalis kami ng family.. gusto kong sumama talaga kaso natatakot na naman akong hindi payagan kasi sinabi na ni tatay na aalis kami.. and in the first place, i've set up my mind na hindi ako sasama so it's too late kung ngayon lang ako magpapaalam.. haayy.. nakakalungkot talaga.. i can't tell what's God's plan for me.. i just hope that God will embrace me so tightly so that i'll never have to be far away from Him.. i love this service so much that i can't imagine my life without it.. that's all..

2006 na!!!

2006-01-03T09:50:00.000-08:00

oh my gulay! ngaun lang ulit ako nakapag-post dito after almost 5 months... haaayyyy... naging busy kasi eh, as in sobrang busy to the max! pero anyway, 2006 na and i think there's so much to be expected from me and from the people around me... haaayyy... it's almost 2am and i'm not yet sleeping kasi syempre, school works na naman... gusto ko na matulog! haha! and mas inuuna ko pa ang pagpopost ng blog dito kesa sa paggawa ng project ko. haaaayyyy! kailangan ko ng tanggalin ung ugali kong un.. hehe.. hmmmmm.. actually, i got no words to say... gusto ko lang magpost ulet dito sa blog ko.. and there's nothing really "amazing" about my life now except that God loves me soooo much! haha! it's as if my life is constant! ang tagal na ngang ganito eh.. i want some change! pero hindi ko naman alam kung pano... haaayyy... maybe i should change something about my attitude... and lately (actually, medyo matagal na din) i've been experiencing dryness from my spiritual life.. haay.. i feel God pero nag-flu-fluctuate yung feelings ko... hmmmm... i don't know... i'm a little bit confused with the things and situations around me... but one thing's for sure, i do BELIEVE! hindi naman ako iiwan ni God eh and He has given me my family and friends... hmmm.. i think that's all i have to say this time... i do hope na sana mapadalas naman ung pagpopost ko dito sa blog! haha! bye! mwah! P.S. sa wakas nakapag upload na din ako ng picture! haha! galing! bye again!

this is bad...

2005-08-09T21:51:00.000-07:00

*sigh*

ayoko ng ganitong feeling.. ung tipong, wala na namang direksyon ung mga ginagawa mo.. the kind of feeling na sobrang naboboring ka na sa daily routine mo.. i don't know why i feel this kind of emotion.. it disgusts me.. especially when it comes to studies.. i kept thinking why can't i bring back the eagerness and enthusiasm that i felt last sem.. di ko tlaga maintindihan ung sarili ko ngaun.. even the simpliest thing like waking up early in the morning to prepare for school, sobrang hirap na hirap akong i- accomplish eh.. sobrang dami ko ng late and absents sa mga subjects ko, lalo na sa first subjects ko.. also, i know na this school year will be a tough one.. kasi it's like my fourth year na rin kasi practicum na kami next sem so lahat ng mga paper works like fesibility studies, teaching demos and documentations, this sem lahat binibigay. can you imagine, 3 ung feasibility studies na ipapasa namen this sem na sobrang hirap.. take note, prelims pa lang un, what more pa sa finals.. honestly, I'M GETTING PRESSURED WITH THE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW.. wrong timing tong nararamdaman ko ngaun kasi this is the time na kailangan ko ng fire na magpupush saken to do my responsbilities..

*sigh*

i feel like i'm going nowhere.. i'm really confused with they way i feel right now.. kung dati, ginagawa kong inspiration ung pagseserve ko kay God, bakit ngaun, hindi na umuubra o tumatalab un sakin whenever iniisip ko un kapag nakakafeel ako ng katamaran.. siguro, napapansin ko ngaun na medyo okei na sa family ko ung ginagawa kong pagseserve sa community so naiisip ko na hindi ko na ganung kailangang nagstrive sa pag- aaral.. but this is wrong!! kapag bumaba ung mga grades ko, baka un uli ung maging hindrance sakin sa pagseserve and i don't want that to happen.. honestly, hindi na balance ung life ko ngaun kasi there are things that i should be prioritizing but i'm not.. example: bakit kapag pupunta ako ng gathering or ng YFC activities, sobrang excited ako kahit minsan mahirap na ung ginagawa namen pero bakit ung simpleng pagpasok ko ng 7am sa school, hirap na hirap ako.. i really need some help.. ayoko ng ganitong feeling and emotion towards my life..

*sigh*

i like this song.. honestly, hindi ko alam kung song nga to or a piece of poem.. nabasa ko lang to sa blog nga YFC Central B1.. sobrang nakakarelate ako..

Light the Fire Again

Don't let my love grow cold

I'm calling out, light the fire again

Don't let my vision die

I'm calling out, light the fire again

You know my heart, my deeds

I'm calling out, light the fire again

I need Your discipline

I'm calling out, light the fire again

I am here to buy gold refined in the fire

Naked and poor, wretched and blind I come

Clothe me in white

So I won't be ashamed Lord,

light the fire again..

well, that's all for now.. these are my undying thoughts in this portion of my life.. may God bless me with His love and embrace me tighly with His righteous grace.. bye..

aMaZiNg!!!

2005-05-16T02:26:00.000-07:00

Hello! Haha.. wala lang.. just want to share some thoughts for today.. hmmmm.. nakakapagod ang mga araw ko these past few days.. nagvacation na kasi ung mga katulong namen.. haaayyy.. pero okei lang kasi I do my chores willingly and with a smile and most of all I do it for my family.. pati I don’t see it as work, I know na ung ginagawa ko, is my way of expressing them how I love them.. hehe.. ang drama pero seryoso talaga yan, nakakapagod pero fulfilling ung pakiramdam.. hehe.. haaaaayyyyy.. ang sarap matulog kapag pagod ka! Hehe.. smile! grabe! nakaka- inspire!!! Ang daming nangyari sakin these past few days.. they may seem so ordinary pero dun ko nakita at na-realize ung mga messages sakin ni God.. haaayyy.. nakaka- amaze talaga magwork si God sa mga buhay naten.. kasi ganito un, these past few days, parang nag- do- doubt ako sa service ko ngaun kasi its about my problem with the full approval of my parents dun sa service ko sa YFC.. tapos ako pa ung team leader sa darating na camp this May.. so, feeling ko hindi ko magawa ung mga responsibilities ko as chapter head at team leader.. medyo nawawalan na tuloy ako ng eagerness to serve.. I always had that fear na hindi ako papayagan kapag nagpaalam ako sa isang activity namen.. gusto ko kasi na kapag nag- serve ako, merong full approval ng parents ko.. as days go by, I didn’t know na I’m feeding my doubts kasi kung anu- ano na ung iniisip kong negative.. hindi ko pala nakikita ung message ni God sakin.. I thought I am doing nothing pero hindi pala.. sobrang dami palang tao nung ginamit ni God para i- encourage pa ako sa pagseserve ko.. I have my friends in YFC and most of all my parents.. parang dati hindi nila ako tinatanong about my service pero ngayon, kinakamusta na nila ako.. wow! Grabe talaga.. tapos nagkaroon kami ng chapter assembly.. the night before, I decided na I’ll start calling ALL the members of our chapter, kasama na dun ung mga inactive.. pero kinabukasan, halos wala akong boses and sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko kasi nagkasakit ako (ubo, sipon at sinusitis..) and that afternoon, umalis pa kami ng family ko so medyo nagworry ako kung pano ako makakapagtawag ng maayos.. then, a friend in YFC na ka- chapter ko rin called me sa cellphone and he offered help sa pagtatawag ko sa mga members (thanks David!!).. Praise God! At the end of the day, nagiging okei ung pagtatawag namen.. so when the day of the assembly came, I just hope and pray na marami sana ung pumunta.. 1pm ang call time namen and almost 3pm na medyo konti pa lang kami.. so I thought konti lang ung darating.. minutes passed and to my surprise, little by little, dumadami na kami.. wow! Umabot kami ng 19.. eh parang dati, wala pang 10 ung aattend sa chapter namen.. nakakatuwa lang talaga.. haaayyyy.. mas nakaka- encourage tuloy mag- serve kay God.. and today, halos nawala na lang ng parang bula ung mga doubts ko dati.. it has been replaced by the enthusiasm and passion to serve God.. narealize ko din na last weekend, sobrang nanghihinayang ako kasi hindi ako nakasama sa Kasangga Retreat. i know na marami akong matututunan dun and feeling ko ang dami kong na- miss.. pero a friend in YFC told me na wag manghinayang kasi it only means na mas magandang plan si God para sakin (salamat Freizer!), feeling ko eto ung better plan ni God sakin.. ang dami kong natutunan in a way na sobrang twisted.. i've learned it from my own experience and not from any speakers.. ang galing talaga! Amazing! God really works in our lives.. just keep praying and surely, everthing’s gonna be alright.. GOD IS ENOUGH!!!

hhhmmmmm...

2005-05-07T01:44:00.000-07:00

hi! haayyy, ang tagl ko ulit hindi nakapagpost dito ha.. hehe.. alam mo na un kung bakit.. eniwei, wala lang.. just want to share my thoughts at this moment.. haaayyy.. actually, patulog na ko tapos nakita ko ung ate ko na nag- iinternet tapos sabi ko sa kanya na painternet din.. kakagaling ko lang ngayon sa burol ng lola ng isang friend ko sa YFC.. namatay na kasi ung lola nya.. and i know na kasama na si lola ni God ngaun.. grabe, ang galing ni God kasi at that time, naiinis ako sa lola ko (for some reasons..) tapos during nung nagdadasal kami, narealize kong ang swerte ko pa pala kasi may lola pa ko.. tapos malakas pa sya and just here beside us.. nababalewala ko na pala sya.. haaayyy.. ang tindi talaga ni God magpa- realize ng mga mistakes mo.. tatamaan ka talaga.. isa pa, nag- confess kasi ako kahapon nung holy hour tapos kinonfess ko ung about dun sa galit or should i say, sama ng loob ko sa parents ko kasi nga hindi nila ako pinapayagan sa mga YFC activities this past few days.. tapos alam mo ba, sabi sakin ni father na kailangan marealize natin na hindi dapat ung will naten ung masunod.. dapat ung will ni God.. tama!! medyo nakalimutan ko un those times pero ang galing ni God kasi ang dami nyang pinarealize sakin.. MAY GOD'S WILL BE DONE.. haaayyy.. astig talaga.. actually medyo natutuwa nga ako ngaun kasi medyo parang okei na sa kanila ung pagattend attend ko sa mga activities namen eh.. haaayyy.. God works mysteriously talaga.. ayun.. that's all.. gnyt.. bye..

I'M BACK!!!

2005-04-01T15:41:00.000-08:00

hellow mallow.. nayk! ang corny.. eto na lang, what's up, ketchup? hehe.. mas lalong corny.. haaayyy.. wala lang.. ang tagal kong hindi nakapagpost dito.. grabe.. eh kasi naman, naubusan anko ng internet card sa bahay and medyo tinatamad akong magset- up ng laptop.. hehe.. ayun.. vacation na!!! YEHEY!!! yan ang una kong sinabi.. at least hindi na ko magwoworry sa mga requirements ko.. haaayyyy.. pero 1st week pa lang ng vacation ko.. wow.. grabe! nakakatamad.. as in sobrang inaamag na ako sa bahay.. parang replay na lang nang replay ung buhay ko kasi wala akong magawa sa bahay namen.. haaayyy.. gusto kong may pagkaabalahan ako while i'm spending my 2 months vacation.. trip ko nga sanang magwork kaso wala naman akong kasama.. ewan.. sana there will come a time na maging busy at the same time nag- eenjoy ako in this vacation.. hmmmm.. actually masaya un kung pinapayagan ako sa mga YFC activities namen this summer pero ayan na naman.. ewan ko kung bakit medyo pahirapan na naman ung pagpapaalam ko.. siguro may reason and i have to figure it out myself.. anyway, enough of that.. hmmm.. la lang.. basta i'll try to enjoy my summer vacation.. la lang.. ayun.. Godbless.. babush..

haaaaayy buhaaaayyyy....

2005-02-19T23:50:00.001-08:00

i see them coming... alam mo kung ano? problema... yup! as in trials, challenges at kung ano pang pwedeng itawag sa kanila... haaaay... di ko malaman kung ano ung mararamdaman ko, matatakot ba or maeexcite kasi i know na meron na naman akong matututunan about life... isa- isahin natin sila... pero take note na all of these "problems" are MY problems, some of them are "mababaw" for you... these thoughts are only bothering me... una, family... i think something's wrong with me... feeling ko sa dami ng mga ginagawa ko, nawawalan na ko ng time sa kanila... di ko alam kung pano ko ibubudget ung time ko para mas mabigyan ko pa sila ng time... last feb 17 (thursday) nagdrama na ung nanay ko sakin... pabiro man pero the fact that "jokes are half meant" right? so that means na nafifeel din nila ung "pagkawala" ko madalas sa bahay... i just wish na, there are more than 24 hours in a day so i'll have enough time for everything... actually, namimiss ko na rin ung family ko... kahit kapag inaamag ka na dito sa bahay dahil bored na bored ka na, iba pa rin ung feeling na kasama at malapit sila sayo... second, studies... whaaaa, natatakot na talaga ako this coming weeks... alam ko na magiging sobrang busy na ako... as in sobrang busy na siguro kahit ung resting at sleeping time ko, magagamit ko para dun... in layman's term, puyatan na!! dadating na ung matitindi naming requirements, quizzes, exams, group presentation at higit sa lahat, ung ACTUAL DEMO ko... whaaa, kinakabahan ako... parang gusto kong magcollapse kapag dumating ung time na un... isa pang problem ko sa studies ko ngayon ay ung umiiral na pangit kong ugali, KATAMARAN... nawawalan na ko ng ganang pumasok... hindi ko alam kung bakit... pero hangga't maaari, ayokong mafeel na tinatamad ako... lahat ng bagay, tao at thoughts na pwede kong maging inspiration for studies iniisip ko para mawala ung feeling na yon... tapos minsan ang hilig ko pang mag- crum... naku, hobby ko yata un pagdating sa studies e... nakakainis... third, friends... hmmmm... ung friends ko sa school, okey naman... sila ung tipo na good influence pero may mga masasaya din ung mga trip... thankful ako sa mga kumag na yon kasi siguro kung ibang tipo ung friends ko, tagal na kong "pasaway"... friends sa yfc, at this time kasi were experiencing some challenges e... medyo nagkakaaway- away, not exactly pero there are some conflicts going on... hindi ko rin alam ung gagawin ko kasi medyo baguhan lang ako, so i think na medyo wala pa akong karapatang magsalita ng ganon... i may not look affected pero deep within, iniisip ko ung pwede kong magawa para masolve ung problema... hmmmm... ano kaya? tapos, i had a miscommunication with a particular friend ko sa yfc... di ko alam ung gagawin ko... basta... di ko alam... fourth, my spiritual life... i need nourishment!!! nafifeel ko na ung pressure ng pagiging chapterhead ko and sometimes some thoughts are swimming in my mind na hindi na nakakatulong sa pagseserve ko kay God... hhhaaaaaayyyyyy... sana dumating na ung time ng megacamp namin for summer... gusto kong magcamp ulit kami, not just for myself but also for everyone... ayun... yan ang mga "problema" ko sa buhay... ung iba mababaw, ung iba sobrang common na... pero problems are problems, kapag hindi nagawan ng paraan, pwedeng lumaki... these are difficulties that are given by God... one thing's for sure, gano man kahirap yan, i will not give up... i will be strong... strong for myself and for the persons i love, but most of all, for God... kasi i know na hindi Nya ibibigay sakin ung mga obstacles na hindi ko kaya... so what i'm experiencing right now are problems na makakayanan ko diba! aja! hehe... pati alam ko na sobrang sarap nung feeling kapg nalampasan mo ang isang particular problems... those things mold you into what you are right now and even make you into a better person someday... hhhaaaaayyyy... pati i know may binigay si God na people that will never abandon me in times of my crisis in life... GOD WILL PROVIDE... andyan lang naman si God eh... nothing more, nothing less and that's more than enough... (",)

Praise God!!!

2005-02-18T19:11:00.000-08:00

yahooo... sa wakas natapos ko na din ung requirements ko sa isang subject ko... hehe... grabe, miracle talaga... kasi ganito story nun, I have a subject that requires us na magbabasa ng isang buong libro at isusumarize mo sya every chapter. my book had 12 chapters and in the past few days, i manage to finish summarizing 10 chapters and typing it on the computer. it was just last february 15 (tuesday un), hindi me pumasok kasi college week namen so i thought i could use my time fruitfully. i decided na gagawin ko na lang ung mga requirements ko... ngunit, datapwa't, subalit, pagtingin ko dun sa study table namen, nawawala ung laptop and I found out na dinala pala ng parents ko in their office. so sabi ko, "okey lang, mamaya na lang gabi ako gagawa..." pero sa aking pagkabigla, tumawag sa kin ung ate ko and informed me na sira ung laptop... corrupted daw yung files due to a virus... Whhhaaa!!! nanlumo na naman ako... ang dami ko ng nagawa dun and sa february 18 (friday) na yung pasahan nun... i had only 3 days para ulitin lahat yun... huhu... magiyak- ngiyak na talaga ako nun... so wednesday, when i got to school, kakaupo ko pa lang ng chair, i started summarizing the book "again"... grabe, sobrang sakit na nga ng kamay ko kakasulat and the worst of all, i was not able to listen to all the lessons of all my subjects that day... as in wala... wala akong naintindihan dahil yung attention ko ay nasa libro... haaay... pagkauwi ko, narealize ko na within almost 8 hours ng pagsusulat, i managed to finish 9 chapters... amazing... narealize ko na within 1 or 2 days, matatapos ko pala agad yung requirement ko pero last christmas vacation ko pa sinimulan ung paggawa nun... wehehe... back to the story, buti na lang a special friend (thank you so much to that person) insisted on helping me to finish my project on time (ipagtatype nya ko since wala kaming computer sa bahay at that time kasi pinapagawa)... tapos wala pang 4 hours nun, tumawag yung nanay ko, so kinamusta ko yung laptop... i asked kung kelan makukuha yung laptop and kung may chance pa na marecover yung mga files... and to my suprise, this day sya nakuha and hindi lang yun, narecover lahat nung files so ibig sabihin, hindi ko na kailangang issumarize lahat ulit yun... ang galing talaga!!! haaaayyyy... yun nga lang nanakit yung kamay ko... pero okey lang kasi di na ko mag- aalala for my requirement... so di na tinuloy ng friend kong itype yun (pero thank you talaga !!!)... and in this moment. tapos ko na yung requirement ko... eto, hawak ko, napaprint ko na rin... kita nyo? wahaha... eniwei, there are things that i learned from that experiences. maybe God allowed that for me to realize those things... first is that, learn to value your time! siguro kung dati ko pa ginawa yung pagttype, hindi ako mamomroblema kahit biglang nasira yung laptop. and second, i learned that God will always provide... hindi Nya ako pinabayaan (in a way na nagawa yung laptop on time and may taong tumulong sa kin sa paggawa nun)... haaayy!!! ang galing talaga noh!!! ayun, na- share ko lang yung simple but amazing experience ko ngayon... till then...

if only...

2005-02-10T03:41:00.000-08:00

haaaaayyy... grabe, medyo namomroblema ako sa studies ko ngaun... its not about my grades pero dun sa isang subject na naiwanan ko... ang dami palang prerequisites nun... so ang tendency ay mahuli ako ng ilang subjects next year... pero ang masakit nito, hindi lang sya basta subjects kundi mga major subjects ung maiiwanan ko... haaaay, nung una pa naman, balak kong i- summer ung naiwan kong subject so next sem, regular na ulit me, pero kanina lang while waiting for my classmates for lunch, bigla nilang hinatid sakin ang masamang balita, walang summer class ung subject na balak kong i- summer... syempre agad kong tiningnan un bulletin board sa tapat ng building ng educ., at nanlumo ako sa aking natunghayan... wala nga!!! haaaay... paulit- ulit kong tiningnan ung announcement pero wala talaga akong makitang Educ 204 ( un ung subject na naiwan ko)... next thing i did was to go to the dean's office at tanungin kung un lang talaga ung mga subjects na i-susummer ng college namen, at sabi naman nila na un lang ung mga subjects na i- ooffer unless may magpetition na i-summer ang isang particular na subject... tapos ung subject pa na un ay ino- offer lang ng 2nd sem of the year, so ibig sabihin, mag- aantay pa me ng isang sem para makuha un... ayun... nakakabaliw... okey lang sana kung pwede kong i- add ung mga subjects na maiiwan ko for the next following sems pero ang magiging result kasi nun for me, hindi ako makakapagpracticum nun at the right year, that means that hindi ako ga- graduate on time... magiging octoberian ako... whaaaa... ayoko nun... haaayyy... if only hindi ko pinabayaan ung studies ko last 1st year, 2nd sem, siguro hindi ganito ngaun (ang drama na)... pero honestly, i'm regreting that moment kasi within that little span of time na sinayang ko, ang laki ng nawawala sa kin ngaun... haaay... gusto kong sisihin ung prof namin na nag- incomplete sakin at naging dahilan ng pagkaka- incomplete ko pero syempre, sa bandang huli, ako pa rin ung may kasalanan dun... grabe, nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi... while i'm on my home kanina, halos un lang ung iniisip ko, syempre hanggang ngaun pa rin (obvious ba?)... my only hope na lang is that may magpetition for that subject (sana meron...) or i-offer sya ng first sem para ma- add ko agad sya... hmmmm... pero syempre i'm not loosing hope, hangga't may pwede akong gawing paraan, gagawin ko... sana nga lang meron... hehe... pati i believe that God will provide, maybe not with what i want now pero with what i have to learn from this experience, siguro may gusto lang ituro sakin si God ngaun, and may purpose Sya sa kung ano man ung mangyayari... haaaayyy... basta bahala na si God sakin... ayun... nakwento ko lang... hehe... that's all... (",)

sweet...

2005-02-02T14:29:00.000-08:00

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty.
He said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever.
And he said...no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
and once again he replied with a no.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears were streaming down her face.
The boy grabbed her arm and said....
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever.
I NEED to be with you forever!
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...
I'd die...

yahooo...

2005-02-02T14:22:00.000-08:00

Yehey... sa wakas nakagawa na ko ng blog ko... well, i would like to introduce myself... I'm MA. JAN MICHELLE MENDOZA (haba ng name ko noh...);female; 18 years of age; I'm residing here in Pasig; currently studying at UST; taking up Bachelor of Elementary Education (yup, I'm a future teacher!)... I'm only a simple girl with a simple perspective in life... I'm happy and contented right now coz i know God is working in my life in His mysterious ways... hmmm... ano pa ba?... feeling ko wala na... ayyy, meron pa pala, i don't believe in karma... nyak... hehe... I just hope na maenjoy ko to... yun lang... hehe... Godbless...